VANITY and ME

What is the purpose of vanity when everything is futile. Then why this extravagant display of the plasticity.

I see how the makeup, this masque of false beauty get washed away during the times of great sorrow.
At the very urgency of life we somehow boycott the pretentious vanity, thus we don’t care anymore about the forced hypocrisy at the scarcity of happiness.

What happen then? Are we enlightened or we felt the awakening?
If not then what is that which take over this addictive ornamentation?

Some say “it’s the harmony of life, love, affection, care. Indeed these emotional entities do have their affect but none of it is the pivotal driving force behind it.
FEAR, the dreadful thought of losing the material world and thus unwontedly relinquishing this habit of hypocrisy.

I try to feel the flawless conscious BRHAMAAND in the time of emotional and affectionate scarcity. I think I didn’t feel any fear of future or this ‘love for material’. But the horrifying nightmare of the present, that could happen this very moment.

I am worried about the future regardless of the vanity of what to come but to know that I am here and most possibly will be there at the times of responsibility.

I don’t want to undone anything not to change neither to control but to flow away from its course so that the present couldn’t intimidate me. This extreme feeling of irresponsibility in me or the fear of facing the responsibility is the reason for this, may be.

I left the masque since then but have no realm to stay. I know I can’t find anything.

But I just want to feel ...

LOST in the Facade

WHAT DO I SEE?

I see a flock, flock o people capable individual intellect. But still a herd greedy for the forage they can't digest. I see constant covert hypnosis by the preachers of education through the saucer of competitive consumerism to lure the beef heads for comprehensive self gain.

WHY AM I HERE THEN?

I mean here, in this perpetual illusion-ary system.

The answer is that "I don't know, i know but i don't wanna tell, What you wanna here?"

Can give you as many assertion of these interpellations as possible.

Because i am the mind and the mechanism behind this system. Without my element of apathy, unawareness, fundamentalism, greed, insecurity and fear this system can't be flourished.

I see some pseudo daring cattle that try or mostly pretend to show that they are challenging the subtle possessive art of the system. But in there consciousness they wanted to be fed that same crap disguised as royal regale. There initiative is already sublimated to the system. They don't want to know what's beneath the ground in the fear of what it might be. Dirty, dreadful, filthy and with the peril that the filth will be reflected upon them and will aid there insecurities to gallop them.

WHAT ELSE?

The other type of pseudos, the pseudoacquantances. They try to modify the relationship in accordance with their greed. When the satisfactory toy of self assurances remained starved, they urge you to accuse and interrogate the system. This is the famine generated in their self defensive mind against the elevated thoughts and intellect. They see you as a shield and weapon to avoid direct engagement. They push you to do something they can't nor wanted to do.

WHY AM I TAKING THIS ABUSE?

I am a pussy, a traitor of my own ambition and bravery.

WHAT SHOULD I DO?

I know the answer the actual question is

WHEN I AM GONNA START DOING IT?

DON'T WANT TO SQUANDER IT.

           DON'T SQUANDER IT.